I did it!!!

YES! I did it!

I completed my first 5K race this last sunday at the Scotiabank marathon in Toronto. My last post was a true moment of real inferno for me but it help me realize that in moment of complete disaster, emotionally dysfunctional and stress to a point that your own mind can't bare, YOU have a decision to take and drastic actions to pull yourself together and moving forward with your life, yourself and yours dreams...

And my goal for the last few weeks, since a started the Learning to run clinic with the Runner's Room, was to run a full 5K. In the beginning, I couldn't even run 2 minutes without imaging myself ended it in a hospital with oxygen pumps all over me!!! But look at this remarkable growth. Now I can run for 20 minutes and still, at the same time, be enough comfortable to talk with my fellows runners, isn't it wonderful?

I'm so grateful and SOOOOOOO proud of myself. I look at my medal with candid emotion and can't wait for the next races to come!

Note to myself: Don't be so hard on yourself...You are extraordinary, remember this feeling you had at the finish line, you will own it for the rest of your life! Cherish it, love yourself and continue to move forward!

SABOTAGE

Have you ever experiencing a few days of complete laziness, no desire to complete your daily tasks and feeling like a big potato glue to your couch? Even though I've been on board with my new healthy lifestyle since a couple of months, seeing so POSITIVE results and feeling so much better, I find a way to sabotage myself and right now, It seem to consume me. I was so happy and then BOOM! , I persuaded myself that a fews days of slipping here and there will be find, that I deserved it and bla bla bla. Such Bullshit really! Why should I deserved to put garbage (again) in my body? Why will it be ok to smoke a fews cigarettes? Why will I deserve to fill me up with crappy process food? I wonder...

I never consider myself like a sportive kind of gal, either a person who is as healthy as she could be. I admired people with such a discipline hygiene for health and sports, something that I couldn't achieve in this lifetime...

My actions doesn't compute with my mind and soul. By doing that, I'm destroying my hope, my inner beauty and my self-confidence, why? I wonder....

What I am hungry for? I still wonder to this day. Can't seem to have answer this question completely or perhaps honestly is the right word...


What Are you hungry for?